[ The crack of glass was so unexpected that Tim just stood staring for a moment, his eyes widening when he finally realised just what happened. He covered his nose and mouth with his hands, but it was already too late, and the fine pollen seeped through the gaps between his fingers anyway. He could feel the heat starting to spread through him, an inexorable warmth that left him restless.
He tried to focus and listen to Bucky's words - surely, the professor would know what to do, so he should stay calm and just listen and it would be okay.
So he thought, until Bucky asked him that. ]
I, um... [ He stalled, letting his hands drop from his face and glancing away for a second. Did he have... someone like that? What he and Aomine did sometimes - or rather, what Aomine did to him, most of the time - it was intimate, in a way. But Aomine still picked on him, in fact a lot of the time even when they were - doing stuff it still felt like that, and he wouldn't have said that they were exactly... close.
The more he thought about the question, and about whether the things Aomine did to him made him count, the more he thought about the acts themselves. Unbidden, the thought occurred that he could just do them with Bucky instead - he was so close, Tim could just reach out and touch him, and - no, that was the pollen. He shook his head. ]
I have someone... kind of like that, but he - they're busy with Quidditch practice. [ It was a long walk across the school to the Quidditch pitch, and it was more likely that Tim would end up jumping someone at random before he got there at this rate. ] Can't we - I mean, will the effects wear off if... we take care of it by ourselves?
[ That wasn't what Bucky wanted to hear, but it was just his luck. He continued to refuse to look Tim's way - he knew that if his eyes fell on the younger man, he'd be drawn in and there would be absolutely no turning back from this. Already, the heat in his blood was urging him into looking - his still fleshy hand was going white from the tightness of its grip on his desk. ]
Sexual release is the only way of getting it out of the system, otherwise it just keeps circulating and making matters worse. [ Bucky turned his head just enough for his eye to show, but he kept his gaze aimed down. Tim was his student and it was clear this was going to be a violation, if a necessary one. ]
[ Tim could already feel things getting worse - he wasn't even doing anything besides standing still and watching his teacher's back, trying to stay calm, but he just felt hotter, the heat inside him burning down low, bringing with it an all too familiar tension. He curled his fingers against his palms to stop himself from touching - well, anything, including himself, but it didn't help. ]
... No, of course I'm not sure. But - it's already too late, isn't it? I feel like, if I try to leave now, things will only get worse. [ He'd been standing here breathing in the sweetly scented air for so long, who knew how badly it would affect him, and for how long if he tried to hold back. And what if he ran into some Slytherins in this state, or one of the meaner House ghosts, or...
There were a lot of bad possibilities, and what was worse was that he was starting to think that they wouldn't all be that bad, after all. The pollen was clouding his thoughts, making even the worst thing he could imagine somehow seem appealing, even if only because it would bring relief - and a promise of euphoria. He swallowed, and stepped closer, reaching out to lightly touch Bucky's flesh and blood hand where it was gripping the desk. ]
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He tried to focus and listen to Bucky's words - surely, the professor would know what to do, so he should stay calm and just listen and it would be okay.
So he thought, until Bucky asked him that. ]
I, um... [ He stalled, letting his hands drop from his face and glancing away for a second. Did he have... someone like that? What he and Aomine did sometimes - or rather, what Aomine did to him, most of the time - it was intimate, in a way. But Aomine still picked on him, in fact a lot of the time even when they were - doing stuff it still felt like that, and he wouldn't have said that they were exactly... close.
The more he thought about the question, and about whether the things Aomine did to him made him count, the more he thought about the acts themselves. Unbidden, the thought occurred that he could just do them with Bucky instead - he was so close, Tim could just reach out and touch him, and - no, that was the pollen. He shook his head. ]
I have someone... kind of like that, but he - they're busy with Quidditch practice. [ It was a long walk across the school to the Quidditch pitch, and it was more likely that Tim would end up jumping someone at random before he got there at this rate. ] Can't we - I mean, will the effects wear off if... we take care of it by ourselves?
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Sexual release is the only way of getting it out of the system, otherwise it just keeps circulating and making matters worse. [ Bucky turned his head just enough for his eye to show, but he kept his gaze aimed down. Tim was his student and it was clear this was going to be a violation, if a necessary one. ]
Are you sure, Tim?
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... No, of course I'm not sure. But - it's already too late, isn't it? I feel like, if I try to leave now, things will only get worse. [ He'd been standing here breathing in the sweetly scented air for so long, who knew how badly it would affect him, and for how long if he tried to hold back. And what if he ran into some Slytherins in this state, or one of the meaner House ghosts, or...
There were a lot of bad possibilities, and what was worse was that he was starting to think that they wouldn't all be that bad, after all. The pollen was clouding his thoughts, making even the worst thing he could imagine somehow seem appealing, even if only because it would bring relief - and a promise of euphoria. He swallowed, and stepped closer, reaching out to lightly touch Bucky's flesh and blood hand where it was gripping the desk. ]
I think... you have to help me with this. Please.